I’m searching for a bl manga

i think It was a story about Meiji Era European time japan. Uke was older and was a butler for the seme family. Uke was taking care of the seme since childhood, uke seemed to had several one nights with older noble women. Seme was from a count family maybe, he loved uke but kinda forced himself on him. It was a very hurting story. I read it 5 years old, was too much on my heart so paused reading, then lost the name. Sorry for the bad summary, didn’t remember much. Can anyone tell me the name please?