holyy cow being wlw is NOT for the weak

im bi but the id say romantically leaning to women bc when i date men its eh when we break up but my first ever gf i made her crochet plushies (not lesbian experience) hurt me so much but not to the point of loss of self. what was funny was she said she'd steal my friends and she really hooked up w my ex bestfriend. now shes still lingering i know she wants something casual but im only a bird for Meryl Streep and Steven Yuen. I recently had a mini glow u and she slid u w "Do you think that there could ever be a do over between us?" idk where she got the audacity but i said no but i do miss her sm. and the most nefarious wlw experience i had was with another friend of mine. in 9th grade i conffesed to her she said no and i respected that then we went to highschool (in my country hs starts from 10th to 12th) she started making moves on me and eventually we end up making out in the school bathroom and empty classroom on multiple occasions. Then one day she started talking abt how she wants to bring her mom a son-in-law and grandkids KNOWING that i dont want kids and overall im not a boy. thats when i knew this was probably a "bi-curious" time in her life but FFFFUUUCKK i liked her. all wlw experiences for me have been so hurtful but more than my male experiences even though women dont probably love me. I LOVE WOMEN!!!!!