I don't know what I like anymore

I've never liked girls all my life I've liked boys, but I had this female for like 3 years and I think she's super hot. My heart hurts a lot because I know that I can't be with her because she's obviously super straight. I'm still attracted to guys, but I think big boobs are sexy and stuff like that. I don't really find many girls good looking. I've only every really like her, so I ended out friendship because of that and other personal stuff. Really don't know what to do. Thought I was gay but but I read some Yuri and I find it boring. I like yaoi though.