I hate my life sometimes

my parents control everything, im 18, in university and trying to build something for myself. yet I got yelled at for wanting to walk to the fucking store to get dry shampoo, which is a 15 minute walk when its sunny, cloudless and fucking nice to walk.

im so sick of this, I barely have a social life cause im barely allowed to even go out, I have to be home at 4 pm or else ill get a lecture on how ill be raped and kidnapped for living. (we live on the countryside with fields and farms)

I cant get a job far, knowing its hard to find one, I cant drive (I cant get my Ps without finishing my Ls, yet no one is willing to help me drive) I can't go to the library, I can't go anywhere by myself, my mum wants to me to bring my 13 yr old brother with mr to walk if I want to go somewhere.

she thinks im out doing drugs, or talking to men, when I cant even leave the house without war. I lost friends cause of them, I hate myself cause of them, its driving me nuts, I want to live a normal life, my mum got married at 18 to a guy 10 yrs older than her but god forbid I want to walk to get some dry shampoo and iced coffee