i need to start studying and become employed

hello mgg users, no one asked but im yapping.
i need to really lock in and start studying. im doing post grad now, can you believe? T_T i feel like im so behind bc all my friends did 3+2 framework in PG while i did a 4 year undergrad, why did i do that if ultimately i would end up doing 2 year PG T_T. im so behind in life T_T. i js need to be employed T_T. the job notification im waiting for isn't yet out i really gotta lock in and become an ATC fr. istg these organisations never put the notice out on time T_T. it's been 1.5 years and they haven't released any new info :( also will be sitting for the lecturer-ship & PhD fellowship qualification exam this year OH HELL NAH im cooked T_T. i js wanted to read yaoi in peace what is this fuckery?
ok, yap end. tomorrow i have a test SAVE ME AAH