Ranting abt berserk

I’ve never stumbled across something as disgustinginhly beautiful as Griffith and guts’ relationship and what makes the betrayal soooo sooo intense is that they love each other in a way no one else can
NOONE can love them the same way they love each other,they’ll forever look for something similar to what they had( guts IS doing that) Griffith had to sacrifice guts cuz his feelings got in the way, guts was the equivalent of Griffith’s whole existence,he said he’s shining so glaringly that the castle seems like a junk compared to guts omg
he felt hunger for him (his words) and guts yearns for Griffith(also his words),
he wants Griffith’s attention -even after the betrayal..guts broke down when femto told him his heart no longer beats for him lol
He thinks he’s dazzling, he wants Griffith to only look at him, the only person he doesn’t want to look down on him , devoted his life for him while remembering him as the moon after he questioned grififth why he’d go so far for him and Griffith repsponed " tell me do I need a reason each time I put myself at harms way for your sake"
Nothing can ever amount to Griffguts’ feelings and raw emotions for each and when someone compares them to Sasuke x Naruto I get angry and upset how dare u say that cheap ruhana (slam dunk)copy is anything similar omg..
Or when someone claims guts x cacsa is better when their relationship is almost non existent and revolved around Griffith(even their sex scene was somehow Griffith centric ) there no good build up for them AT ALL

when someone says that casca is more important to guts than Griffith ( pre eclipse) WHAT???? They barely interacted even the author admitted it was rushed and out of nowhere lol he even said they’re not inlove /lovers (unlike what their shippers like to claim from a one night stand)
and even said you can read Griffguts romantically and it’s based on yaoi like banana fish/kaze ki to uta/ devilman ..yeh author even made another story featuring characters that look exactly like Griffguts and have similar interactions and he stated it’s the first time he’ll properly put "romance" in one of his story
I hate that this fandom is filled with dudebros and homophobes who’d excuse guts attempting to rape casca multiple times but turn around and get angry at Griffguts cuz Griffith raped casca(I’m angry at this too but how is that relevant to griffiguts? Both Griffith and guts are bad ,they deserve each other )
But why are you ok with gutsca if she and the rape mattered that much to you?