anyone who’s reading this while struggling with depression or anxiety : do GO see a therapist or psychiatrist, RIGHT. NOW.
i’ve been struggling with social anxiety for 7 fucking YEARS. i thought that it would somehow go away, but it didn’t, and here i am unable to step outside now.
your mental illnesses will not go away on its own. it’ll become such a big issue in ur life that you will not be able to see the light at the end. pls seek help…. my anxiety was rather okay and i could handle it even if i had a few panic attacks per year.
i’ve developed GAD, agoraphobia, a severe social anxiety disorder, a panic attack disorder and i am dissociating 24/7 : my anxiety was so bad on my brain that it decided to put me in a constant derealization state ( i am basically living and acting like a robot ). imo this is way worse than having an ed or depression ( my personal experience ) because you’re literally tweaking out 24/7.
so now i can’t do anything and im stuck in a tiny apartment. this is #NoJoke, pls seek out before ur illnesses get the best of you
anyway. i hope yall are having a great day, the outside isn’t scary, that i know, theoretically, but if i go outside, i think ill start puking everywhere
no wonder Sheila was my favourite character when i was 16.
she is me and im her
also btw btw… like i said im in a constant derealization state. yes i say one thing and the other im gonna say the complete opposite, i contradict myself all the time
and its not even on purpose, so forgive me
im not trying to be a hypocrite
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although I want to, I have no money to see a therapist so I figured I'll just do the therapy myself
i can (try to) be your therapist if you want <3
you really are my twin ( ˘ ³˘)
Babes, I didn't know you had agoraphobia!! Omg, I've seen and heard many things about it, that sounds horrible
No but seriously, I hope can overcome it, you're so amazing and joyful (Most of the time) and you're completely right about people needing to see a therapist. Honestly, I thought the overwhelming stress I was having about meeting new people/going to new places would eventually go away, and no it didn't. I had to have a long talk with my mom about it, and she told me she used to feel the exact same way, and it just helped a lot, and now I can socialize without feeling like my face is going to go numb or suddenly feeling shaky at the thought of asking a worker for help finding something.
Also off topic but I'm loving Shamless so far, and I love Sheila's character too, it's such a good portrayal of agoraphobia
You just reminded me that I'm actually diagnosed with all of these (aside from agoraphobia) and that I need to find a new therapist...... Bu-but I'm broke. Also I have VERY SEVERE performance anxiety so how does that even work smh.
i didn’t use to have agoraphobia, it developed extremely quickly, from not going outside and staying in my room 24/7. i also failed to mention that im dissociating ALL. THE. TIME.
my brain is trying to protect me from everything that’s giving me anxiety, and now i’m in constant derealization state.
this is exactly why im telling ppl to seek help before your situation gets worse. try to find someone to talk to, even online. i live in france, so i don’t know about you but we can go to the therapist 12 times per year without paying anything. do ur research and see if something like that exists in ur country i promise, it will get better.
Dissociating all the time is so real. I dissociate so much I exhaust myself by not even sleeping for days sometimes despite being sleepy af.
Meh unfortunately we don't have any good mental health awareness here as much as there should be and it's hard AF to get a good therapist. I've tried my college therapist though as consultation is free but the therapist also turned out way too shitty so yeh.
I make sure to take baby steps to get better though and my brother is a doctor so he helps in any way possible through his connections and all lmaoo. I've been feeling better these past few weeks (let's not jinx it ) but yeh I still need consultation because the regular two anxiety attacks per week are also getting to me. Also did I mention my PERFORMANCE ANXIETY. AAAAHHH.
BTW GOODLUCK TO YOU IN HEALING LOVE.
Completely agree, I was also diagnosed with social phobia and extreme panic attacks along with my already established mental disorders, if you lack the resources or the ability to go to a doctor, I urge you to read more about yourself and your brain, do NOT laze away from education, its an important step to find a partial solution to the problem.
Those aren't necessarily resources, but I've gathered those websites who can help a little with anxiety and panic attacks in general:
- Random hugs, smiles, or simple waves from all across the world, all for you:
https://thenicestplace.net
- If you're feeling empty, this website takes you to a random website, they're useless until they're the reason you're smiling:
https://theuselessweb.com
- stop overthinking and feeding yourself negative thoughts, you deserve some fun time too:
https://www.boredbutton.com/
- if quiet and a relaxing music is what you need, this place offers a hand, a reason, and a goal to find peace:
https://thequietplaceproject.xyz/thequietplace
- no one is perfect, and that's what makes us beautiful, each of us is unique and different, and this website exists to tell you why:
https://emergencycompliments.com/
I think its important that women especially hear this post too. Women are asked to live under the pressure society has forced on them, you can pretend like it's not true but women are the biggest victims in a system like this. Do not be afraid, seek therapy, do not fear it, its as much of a right for you as it is for ANYONE struggling with mental health
Surround yourself with those who will love you and make sure your worth is known, there's no better potion than love.
and also don’t let the panic disorder or the anxiety one take too much place in ur life. the more you refuse to get out bc you’re scared to do this or that, the more credit u give to ur mental disorders. once ur brain has acknowledged that the outside world is scary : babe you’re fucked
feminism propaganda under my post…
i'm working on this same shit seabi. i've been doing emdr since they think it'll help. We've got this seabi! Don't give up! I'll let you know if emdr works so far it's cleared up a lot of the mystery behind why I feel the way I do. Hopefully it'll help me overcome it soon (thats the next step ig) There's always shit you haven't tried if this doesn't work i'm doing shrooms next woooo! But lifes still enjoyable inside even if it doesn't all doesn't work I love drawing and I want to be a mangaka which I can do alone and still be happy and I love saying crazy shit on here too. I'm such there's much you love to do too.
sorry i'm half asleep so this is kinda all over the place but if you couldnt make sense of my rambling, I'm rooting for you and you aren't at the end, you are forever evolving.
if it doesn't all* + I'm sure there's much you love*
OMG EMDR SOUNDS SO SCARY LWK my bsf’s old therapist told her to do this but she refused bc it would be too much for her… im currently taking anxiety meds, but it hasn’t been working much tbh. TMI but it took away my ability to orgasm and my libido itself… BUT NOT MY ANXIETY
i’ll ask my psychiatrist to give me benzos so i can at least feel better when im having a panic attack lol.
anyway yes yes i hope things go well for u too AND you will become a mangaka i believe in u
dw abt it im always saying whatever on mangago haha
YO WTF THATS FUCKED UP! I'm currently taking buspar for anxiety and it makes life a lot easier but still really hard to leave the house or talk to people. I think emdr is scary but it feels like i've done every other type of therapy (not hypnotherapy tho) and this fear of being percieved is still there. So we're going in the trenches of my dirty lil brain! The most helpful therapy i've done is CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy not cock and ball torture that wouldnt help my social anxiety at all) and DBT (dialectical behavioral therapy). Just... sharing ig. Also thank you (づ￣ ³￣)づ i hope to start releasing the first episodes of my first webtoon in like 2 months or something idk we'll see. i'm writing hard! (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
im trying to make jokes etc but im deadass tired and like get me out of here ok… everyone who dislikes me : no need to wish me for the worst, im alrd suffering