If only omegaverse was real ToT

I wish to be an alpha jacked guy who's a switch, because after consuming a LOT of BL/Yaoi, I have both the urge to make love with my lover and fuck them senseless AND the urge to be fucked senseless by my lover, y'know like these alpha x alpha tropes I really love it, I wish to improve my self at drawing to make a manhwa like that ε=ε=(ノ≧∇≦)ノ