just me complaining about a stupid issue so dont waste your time here who cares anyway it's so hard im so tired it's finally the holydays or vacations or however you call it and instead of doing what i like im just lying on my bed crying bc im so fucking tired and i finally stop putting myself under constant pressure to go outside have all these social interactions and do everything without having any rest for weeks and i even avoid forums here to save my energy bc it's so tiring to arg on this fuckass website with yall stupid bitches and now my body just lets go bc i can finally rest and im dry literally i dont have any energy left yesterday i had a "good dinner" with my parents and sibling for the start of the vacations and they wanted to eat smt with meat and i try to only eat meat with labels that make sure the animals are treated correctly and have a good life before we eat them and the meat is of good quality and all that so i decided to eat the dinner without the meat so my mom gave me some weird vegetal wanna be steak instead of real meat but it was so awful so i didnt finish and i wanted to eat potatoes bc i was still really hungry but they only prepared the stupid potatoes i find disgusting with a weird texture so i didnt eat them it disgusts me too much bc i have fucking arfid so i just left and cried for an hour bc it felt so bad idk why it made me so fucking sad nothing was made for me they know im difficult with food and they know what i like but they didnt make smt for me and i just ate some bread at 2 am bc i was so hungry im so weird but i dont want to what they eat disgust me they are so fucking loud and tiring and they treat me like some weird creature and use what i am like an insult they dont even understand me when i speak to them communication is so fucking hard and not bc idk how to express myself or how to communicate but i have to be careful with everything i say or they'll misunderstand me there's a fucking wall between me and the rest of the world im so different it hurts i didnt ask to be like that so why putain pk c'est à moi de vivre ça et me sentir comme un foutu alien les 3/4 du temps jpp c'est trop horrible en quoi c'est de ma faute pk ils peuvent pas faire un petit effort pour me traiter comme un human normal
