Is it usual for a lesbian to like BL

I just realised I'm a lesbian last year after identifying as bi for like ten for a few reasons, but I've never fully dated anyone so maybe I'm just a lame ass poser. Anyway, I like love gay romance. With movies and shows, I prefer lesbian romance and any form of coming of age, but really nothing compares to reading some gay ass fanfiction where two guys kiss or a manga where some dude gets his ass rocked. Like I also really prefer gay to lesbian fanfiction and manga too, but I will supply that it's just also so hard to find good ass lesbian shit catered to me the way gay stuff is.

Anyway, I've really tried to like like real men, but I don't?? But I love humans, I love men, I'm not a hater but why do I love gay romance more than lesbian stuff. Like I like women, I get crushes on them, and they turn me on, my ultimate sex goal is to strap a girl to infinity, but Like sometimes I get turned on by the gay fanfiction too, but it's just weird like I'm not attracted to the men I'm attracted to the situation and the emotional vulnerability which sounds so stupid but like that's the only thing I can reason?? Like am I crazy is this normal or am I just funk or something?? Someone reassure me I'm not a weird ass fuck