Benji's answer (1)

Idk all the details of what is going on inside of your heart, but you can try going to https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/find-help/ Its the national institute of mental health and has a 24/7 online chat. They can listen to your needs anonymously, supply you with resources, and even connect you with programs that can help pay. I hope you find peace......   1 reply