Idk all the details of what is going on inside of your heart, but you can try going to https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/find-help/
Its the national institute of mental health and has a 24/7 online chat. They can listen to your needs anonymously, supply you with resources, and even connect you with programs that can help pay.
I hope you find peace...... 1 reply
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