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CAN WE STOP BEING FUCKING RACIST RIGHT NOW!!??? ITS NOT FUNNY YOU STUPID ASS HOES

I coughed up a piece of flesh(Im sick btw), and I know it’s a piece of flesh cause it was hard and squishy and had no taste unlike phlegm and was a pink color with a vein in it. It als pulled apart kind of stringy like flesh. Am I ok? It also really hurts to cough rn. I tried looking it up on google and it said I possibly had heart failure.

Every night lately without fail, I feel sick asf. Runny/blocked nose, headache, cough, but as soon as I wake up, Im fine. It’s interfering with my sleep and I hate feeling like shit every night. Does anybody know what this could be or experienced anything similar?

I wanna try another style again like I do every time I draw basically since Im not original in the slightest so send ur fav!!!

So basically, I feel like my life has been getting worse and worse. I’m a generally happy person, I’ve never been depressed, I live in a nice home and I don’t worry about much, but things have just been all wrong lately.
I’ve never really felt the need for affection or love from anybody but my friends, and especially not from men(I’m a lesbian), but lately, I’ve been really really really wanting a gf, but there’s so many reasons why I can’t.
First of all, my grades are shit. Idk why anybody would want to date someone with no future, and second of all, I don’t even like anyone. It’s so insane how much I want to date yet I don’t even have anybody I like. No female here is my type, and the only person who is even slightly similar to my type I just don't even see it working out, nor do I care to interact with her.

Besides this, I feel I’ve been just doing everything incorrectly. I keep making people mad and I can’t even control my damn words. All I’ve been doing is apologizing and apologizing over and over but I just end up doing it again, not to mention, I keep getting angry myself over and over which isn’t even helping. All of this is quite draining towards me, and not to mention other stuff that I’m not sharing. I hate feeling like this but I don’t even know how to change anything. I just wish I could go back to a time where I was more happy, I can’t handle any of this stress at all.

One last thing, the reason why I’ve never been depressed or felt sad a lot is cause I have brain damage. I hit my head so much as a child that it damaged my brain, causing me to have memory loss which erases any memory of sad events, or times where I’ve felt sad, making me only really feel happy. The down side too this is that I blow up whenever I get mad cause my emotions get so suppressed… but another problem about this is that I’ve never learnt to deal with negative emotions cause they always go away so soon, which is why I feel like I’m going crazy rn.

Anyways, if you actually read all of this, ummm, thank you ig? Well, if you haven’t and just skipped to the end, you can ignore this. Idrc what anybody does with this information.

You can do that or how you want to look
- https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/212703
Also, I just want to shout out to whoever made this picrew, cause the art is gorgeous

I found another cute picrew I like a lot, here’s the link https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/146077

Can someone give me good reds for stories with relationships like Hannibal’s and Will’s?

Im scared guys it’s getting a little to crazy here for me. I don’t wanna get bombed and why does Iran keep tweeting those things I’m scared. I’m not built for a war I’m just a silly little gyaru teenage girl who wants to have her summer before anything serious happens. I genuinely feel so bad for the people in Palestine their fear must be a billion times more than what I’m feeling rn. But genuinely, if war starts, I’m dying right away I dont think I could successfully survive. And all of this is because of some fat rich men like, I’d rather kill myself than die because of them. Ok byeee!!!

I genuinely cannot stand seeing them with any other characters it disgusts me to my core and I’ve ended up crying one time bcs of seeing them with someone else. Ngl some of the ships are just pure slop tho I can see some but I can’t help but fucking hate it anyways. Same thing about top/bottom dynamics. I wish I didn’t care as much but for some reason my brain has decided to fuck me and make me take their relationship so seriously I just cannot physically, mentally, or any other way see them with other characters. Yumeships fine tho icl, luv the art.

Am I the only one like this?

First instance of this that I can think of is when I was a kid and really loved Elsa. I would go outside with not much on and pretend I was her walking in the snow barefoot singing let it go even though I was freezing.

Next thing I can think of was porn. I remember stumbling upon it as a child and searching as hard as I could for some on YouTube, and when I couldn’t find it, I… I literally cannot fathom why the fuck I thought this was ok but my child self posted a video on yt naked(Im so ashamed theres was no thoughts thinking this was bad in my head at all thinking this was wrong).

After basic porn it was yaoi. Like Ive said before, it lead to hypersexuality and a bunch of annoying kinks.

Next came arcane and my fav ship from it, Jayvik(pls don’t hate Im not one of the evil ones). I found myself constantly longing for a partner and someone to love during that period and kill myself(I have never wanted to be with anyone that much until then) with bcs of how intimate Jayvik was and how they decide to die together. Granted this isnt as bad as the last two where but it influenced my feelings really strongly and I ended up developing a big crush on one of my friends bcs of this T-T never got into a relationship though(THANK GOD).

The next one is smth you see me talk about a LOT. Yup, you guessed it. Janka. Mainly Jabber. My obsession with him and janka has gotten really bad it also messed with my kinks again bcs of how they are(iykyk) like I seemed to have gotten really into wounds, blood, shit like that and I’ve seen stuff that I probably shouldn’t have bcs of it. It also led to (pls don’t think I’m an edglord) self harm…

it’s weird how much my interests can change me. Just wanted to share this rant cause I’ve been thinking about it for a while ever since I was into arcane.

What are your guys’s favorite hair color?

What if coyote Peterson what just secretly a masochist and did those things to inflict pain on himself without being questioned stay with me now

Man I feel bad bcs not to recently they defended me for something cause people go batshit crazy over small things and then got attacked for that and I think that was their snapping point cause they delete their reply and now I find out they deleted their account T-T they where fed up with this sites bs and left :( I would too if I was more mentally ok but I’m stuck here for a long time with all of you…. Sighhhhh

what’s your guys favorite song currently? And does anybody know of songs that sound and make you feel how Headlock does?

Is there any tag you can go through here where you’ve read everything on the first(or more) couple pages?

I found a gyaru picrew! Yippeeee!!! https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/2056024

So pissed they chose a dude to replace chiaki but wtv. At least we get new dangan game im so exited to watch jay play!!!