Maowlongbao's question (8)

Idk, for some reason I'm having trouble sleeping like, back then like 9th grade and 10th grade I always get sleep paralysis and stuff but I can sleep early. But rn, my summer is about to end and my sleeping schedule became shit, idk what happened, I used to sleep in afternoon and sleep early in nights, so I'm confused like. I cannot sleep in afternoon and also night, I start sleeping in around 3am, am I going crazy cuz one time finally sleep around 9pm and woke up at exactly 3am, I was confused but I kept hearing voices like, someone or something is like "pst pst" I got scared but decided to uhm "pst pst" back, ohh wait, this wasn't actually one time. It happened way back almost before my 8th grade ended and then my sleep paralysis starts anyways DO YOU GUYS HAVE SOME TRICKS TO SLEEP FASTER OR METHODS BECAUSE IM LOSING SLEEP AND MY SCHOOL IS STARTING ON MONDAY

SL TOMORROW IS MY FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL SO I NEED TO MAKE AN IMPRESSION

I’m so stressed out right now. It’s already been 2 days since school started, but I feel so dumb and useless. All my classmates seem so smart, either naturally gifted or really hardworking, and I’m one of those hardworking ones. I feel so insecure speaking in front of people. I used to do public speaking back in junior high school, but now I’m trembling. I can feel myself wanting to vomit. And with my mom constantly nagging, it’s getting to me. I know I’m not okay. I know I’m just keeping myself busy. I’ve already made a lot of friends, or maybe acquaintances. Maybe I’m just not used to my new school yet. I feel helpless, I guess.

I was ranting about some1 love bombing and I lowkey think it's poetic or I'm just super sleep deprived

"We used to throw the word "I love you" like we do not know the weight of it, but now after him, I've learned to not say "I love you" without knowing myself fully that I'm willing to carry the weight of my words. "

Ugh, lowkey made my heart ache

Genuinely I haven't meet anyone irl that know matt Maltese liek??? THEY'RE MISSING OUT

Ever since school starter, I feel like I'm getting dumber day by day, maybe because of the constant pressure of my smart classmates? I know I'm not smart but I know I'm a hard working person, but recently I feel like I cannot SPEAK IN ENGLISH PROPERLY, like I cannot even form a sentence. Mind you I do public speaking back in junior high and I'm now at senior high. Is it because of the new environment or km just burnout? Hahah I can't, maybe I'm just dumb,.,. I feel like my vocabulary just went down jajfuckm and btw I joined journalism (cartooning) luv my classmate tho, full of geniuses and open minded peeps

Like, idk??? I don't remember it but I think I've seen some anime as a kid where someone got trap and like yk idk I think its vine?... LOL but it stirred smt on me, or is it because I got sa weird ah me but I don't I always found it cool or smt like HOW COULD I NOT, tentacles $3x. Crazy batshit me ⁄(⁄ ⁄·⁄ω⁄·⁄ ⁄)⁄

Tbh, I'm so pissed with the people who don't know how to gatekeep like, this mf don't know how to fkin close their
(╬￣皿￣)凸mouth. Arghhhhhh it's like the library of Alexandria MY GOOD STUFF QAS THEREヾ(☆▽☆)