Dark Past BaggagesTrauma in ◥✤BL✤◤

uke
people always remark that goodlooking people had it good but it's far from being like that in uke's case. uke might laugh it off and act tough from all the gossips, bad mouthing and scenes of carnage all because of his unique pheromones but he's more hurt & traumatized than he let on. bec. the ones he actually fell for never loved him back.
▸ then younger seme has done exactly the same as them like driving the knife deeper. he did realize it and apologized properly.

seme
▸ seme's got a real horrible past (like pedobears and all) but he's able to smile and be guy he is now by holding on to the thought of meeting that guy that became his inspiration and strength one day.
Uke - has just given up.
▸ now, it's his (seme) turn to be of use to the guy who seemed to just give up on life.
rape/drunken one night stand.

uke
ch. 3-5, page 91-216: Asst. chef of the french restaurant, felice, tsundere uke x #handsome #foreigner seme .
▸uke developed a #xenophobia because of of a tragic past. he was actually raped by men while studying cooking in paris thus the trauma.
▸reencountered gentle and patient seme after 3 years and did not recognize him. seme uses what he's best at to convince the distrustful uke. food.

uke
ch. 2: my heart seriously goes for him. he had to endure being abused & treated like a whore for some asshole lover. and his past still haunts him till now
▸ uke developed feelings for the kind sensei but the very kindness drives his painful reality home.
▸ later, seme made him realize that his love is not there to hurt him but it's a warm proof that he is accepted for who he is... it's love.
get repeteadly raped by some douchebag. douchebag got suckerpunched by

seme
A recently orphaned college boy had no one to go so he just wing it and met this mystery man his aneki thought highly of.
Seme is still feeling guilty over the woman's death and he can't bring himself to throw the kid out of his house. Two intelligent yet lonely people got together in the end because of a tragic death.
▸ uke has his sensitive and lonely side but his presence has an effect to jin. even chiharu (former coworker and now client) noticed it. eventually, jin fell for him.

uke
two collegiate classical music nerds that are both introverts only, the other one is more outspoken. uke's demons appear whenever he's alone in the lab and when there's a thunderstorm. he tried pushing seme away, unwilling to open up about his trauma.
▸ seme, with his adorable awkwardness and unchanging niceness served as a healing medium for him. beautiful ending.
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uke
2nd couple, the elder brother. he and his friend story starting at chap. 4. the all-arrogant model & singer.
▸ depressed now that younger bro has a lover. in truth, he is the one who emotionally relies to this younger bro more. shitty life, got an abusive dad so he put walls and became the feral guy he is now like always being backed in a corner.
▸ childhood friend seme made it clear to uke that he'll always be there, and allow seme protect him every now and then.

seme
story started light then slowly transcend into melodrama as more of seme's past gets well known by the uke.
▸ seme feels that he has no right to fall inlove nor enjoy living bec. of his childhood hardship and trauma. debt, passed around relatives and witness parent's suicide.
▸uke who experienced warm family can give him the love that he needs as long as learn to open up.
dramatic end

uke
# witnessed his former lover's death in person.
▸A bartender who hates and rages on the world, has hurts running so deep
▸seme is very kind and considerate. he is the catalyst for finishing the uke's healing process.
Uke's past did not move me, nor when the MCs got together. But what made me emotional is when he reconnected with his parents who disowned him. Hit me like a ton of bricks. It's so beautiful.
*bara but give it a shot!
> happy ending!!
unce

Uke
#physical abuse #violence
#reencounter after 12 years.
upon meeting the current popular novelist, yagisawa the editor was launched into the past once again where he'd experienced his deepest hurt... which might have been necessary in order to finally get healed from it.
▸ seme also experienced beating from his older brother plus the uke's first love is his older bro. they carry the same wound and he is very nice to empathize with the uke.