I feel the same. I avoid the weight scale and feel like vomiting when I do get on it and face how much I weigh. My dad especially made me loathe myself whenever he said "you'd look so pretty if you lost weight - especially your thighs/stomach" "You need to work out harder" and here's the kicker "If working out once a day doesn't work- do it twice- even three times". He absolutely destroyed my low self esteem. Not that he even realizes it.
I have so much confidence and empathy when it comes to helping other people with their relationships, but I have no belief or expectations that anyone would fall in love with me. I feel for the main character immensely. So it breaks my heart so much.. T^T
tbh i feel insecure about my body because i was really fat- thats why people judge me and calling me fat or pig but its oki im used to it but im really happy that i have friend who accept me and they dont even judge me
so if ur fat or whatv dont be afraid and fight with it bc u will meet someone who will accept u aaahhh