help me find this sobs

i was about to fall asleep but suddenly i remember this one yaoi manga where at first the seme (i guess) had a shitty attitude but on one chapter he was r*ped (i don’t remember if it’s done by a lot of people or not) which was like a redemption (?) for him but i actually pitied him (because nobody deserves to get r*ped) i’m sorry if my description is unclear but i only remembered this particular part about that manga