I can't even imagine what you're going through neither can I give you false hope that it will get better. The only thing I can do is tell u that I know you are strong and that no matter what happens i will support you and will hope you pull through from that terrible nightmare of a time in your life
What's the name of prequel?
Hadakeru Kaibutsu (Yaoi)
Azami (Yaoi). This is solely kan chan story why he become abusive
Read the prequel for the 2nd uke...dang it hurts in my kokoro. His ex and him used to be happy, but he got mad financial issue due to his family, subordinates spreading gossips about him, on top of that being harshly harassed by his ex superior, both physically and sexually, then his ex is quite insensitive and selfish, not even wanting to share the household cost and rent and bc they still loved each other that time, after 2nd uke got mentally broken and the relationship turn toxic, the ex choose to stay despise being hit...it's wrong to resort to abuse but the 2nd uke's are suffering waaaay too much compared to any other character in the series. I can relate to the level of mental exhaustion bc I'm also currently suffering from family financial problem and my verbally abusive dad...there are too many time I imagine myself punching him...but i'm not to that point of breaking yet...