Someone give me the most fucked up yaoi or whatever they know, even if it ist on this webs...

http://www.mangago.me/home/mangalist/57857/

https://myreadingmanga.info/madobuchiya-nishin-feeding-lamb-kr/ not available in english but still try it

http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/aru_otoko_no_higeki/ longer version of rape scene from "Yoru To Asa No Uta"
https://myreadingmanga.info/tag/gengoroh-tagame/ i think he has a lot of fucked up stuff
https://myreadingmanga.info/tag/gangrape/
https://myreadingmanga.info/tag/mind-break/ shota mind break is maybe the worst thing for me that i've tried
https://myreadingmanga.info/tag/paraiso-harada/
https://myreadingmanga.info/tag/violence/

http://www.mangago.me/home/mangalist/60089/ and my list, what i like

http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/killing_stalking/

read the feeding lamb by nishin
Also try gengoroh togame's work. Not the sweet lgbt couple/parent to a little girl, his other works. I think you might get scarred for life. I think the first time I encountered one of his works I wasn't able to read yaoi for 3 straight days

http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/jikan_akima_jinbutsu/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/to_the_sea/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/samenai_yume/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/boys_next_door/