I think it's an unfortunate mix of his stubborn personality and falling always for straight guys :( he fell for the guy who's the most out-of-league person he knows, AND he fell into a vicious circle that only makes him miserable....
i feel pity for him but MAN he can be annoying at times LOL what do you mean you feel like if something comes too easy you feel like it's not truly yours?? you deserve nice things too!! ヽ(`Д´)ノ
Why does he like being miserable :/ we don’t kink shame but damn - this boy Gyuwon could do better ヽ(`Д´)ノ