You could've done all this ALL THIS *gestures* without fucking him. You could've given him a better life and everything without getting involved romantically with him and making him fall in love with you. If you think you are so worthless that you don't deserve him, you could've given him a better life by doing everything you already did, engagement, New job, New hobby, discovering love for books, EVERYTHING without fucking him and giving him hope.
You could've done all this ALL THIS *gestures* without fucking him. You could've given him a better life and everything without getting involved romantically with him and making him fall in love with you. If you think you are so worthless that you don't deserve him, you could've given him a better life by doing everything you already did, engagement, New job, New hobby, discovering love for books, EVERYTHING without fucking him and giving him hope.