for me personally, its the way she thinks of him like he was a bad person purely because he was lazy. of course, we dont know all the details, but someone being unmotivated - especially for long stretches of time - usually hints at larger mental issues like depression rather than simply a personality trait. we can see how she treats him badly in how she literally based a villain character off of him. deculein is constantly described as evil, cruel trash of the earth and literally dies in almost every ending.. that isnt normal when she based the character off a real person who wasn't even toxic towards her.

love this story so much but if this some loli shit im ending it all