He feels guilty enough I think he's been miserable long enough to finally let himself be happy
idk I feel like for some people knowing your lover killed your mom would kill that feeling. like betrayal can feel like the person you thought you knew died so him going in with that and falling for the guy is just…but oh well whatever floats his boat I guess
Obviously. And we also saw the distaste for him for many chapters. It's not like he fell in love with him on the spot yk..it took time and to say that he has to she off these feelings is a it lame idk. He really tried to despise him
I would be rolling in my grave rn if I was your momma