And when normal & loved people like the ml hangun meet abused people like mc, they will never understand "what it is never to have been loved". By giving half their love, abused people like the mc will be further broken...
exactly, the entire time i was crying because being with that kind of parent is literally debilitating. even now as an adult sometimes i still freeze when making decisions when my parents are in the same room
Yeah I could feel my own patheticness reflect back at me when I saw the mc. You hate yourself more than anyone but still you can't do anything
So true, I'm just like mc too, just more more worser i guess!?, I hate my fuvking dad and my mom who can't do shit and live with that monster, and make us suffer too, I don't usually share my weakness, but who cares this is a illegal web, and also my safe place, seen some strangers sharing same pain and wanted to dump my trauma too, although I'm not someone you could pity.. I became more aggressive more egoistic like my dad, I can't control the blood in my Gene's that belongs to him, but I'm changing now, I'm changing rooms, I'm breaking this strings of generational trauma, I'm becoming better I hope so, I don't want to hurt people around me, cause I see myself whenever someone is crying or deeply hurt I remind me of those days, ughh they made me hate myself, they didn't teach me self worth but how to be cautious of my own self, but I also met some really great people, and good things that rarely happens in my life, I look up to those things and that's what kept me going in life, when things get too dark and when you think of ending everything please remember those people, moments, that are waiting for you, I know it's hard but it will get better, just how it did for me, and that's why now I am here, reading my favorite manga and writing this comment, if back then I killed myself I wouldn't have saw this manga and get the chance to write this comments, I don't want to die with regrets and guilt that's why I'm glad I'm still alive and kicking hehe
hugssss!! can totally relate to u. may we all heal from our own personal baggages and create a safe space for future generations so they won't get traumatized too
For those people who have never been in an abusive household where your primary caregiver is the violent abuser... you will never understand.
Your entire personality, your entire life choices, your entire existence becomes about the trauma. You have no thought, no choice, no ability to discern freedom or ability to move away from the abuser. In a family set-up, the abused & abuser become co-dependent. And it becomes worse. Its like a stage 1 cancer that progressively becomes a stage 4 cancer. It never gets better with the change of location or people. It just festers to rot until the abused person implodes as everything in his/her life breaks apart. Its an existential crisis unlike any other!
At this point of implosion, some abused people take their lives.
Some abused people will wake up as their survival instincts awaken & they slowly try yo put their broken pieces together enough to live life in peace. For these people normalcy is pure luxury. They aren't looking for stimulus or adventure or fun. They are looking for safety, stability...
Then there a huge chunk of abused people who survive & pass on their trauma to their children & so on.