Thank you kind stranger!
thank you so much!
thank youuu
The way he loves arel same as he loves mehen
He actually says that Mehen is his solace and the only person that makes him feel like a human (aside from Arel and his sister)（/TДT)/ If its not love then I don't know what is
Watch the author call his feeling for Mehen "brotherly love" I'd literally scream
okay but i need tiny bit more, how did arel survive this time
It sounds so weird when Valer says without context that he was afraid he'd kill Arel ╥﹏╥
He actually was repeating his life over and over again and each time when he stayed with Arel and never left, she would be dead not long after. Even when he came back from the North after a short time she would still die. That's why he decided to stay away and never meet her so she stayed alive longer, but in the end she kept dying and Mehen hated Valer for not seeing Arel before her death. Valer thought that if he didn't show up she would still hold on longer, in the end she died and Mehen abandoned him bc he couldn't forgive Valer for not seeing Arel even once.
So Valer believes that Arel's early death is always related to him seeing her. He thinks he's the one killing her, thats why he told Arel he never came back because 'he was afraid he'd kill her'. He just meant that she always dies not long after he meets her.
This time around Mehen told him he would regret it if he didn't come back and he remembered that Mehen never forgave him in the past when he called for him and he didn't come right away. He didn't want to have any regrets this time around so he came back. He knows that even if Arel dies the cycle will repeat anyway, so he took the risk that he may 'kill' Arel and came back.