if you want to experience romance you'll be able to. please please seek help or talk to someone you can trust. reach out to your support systems. there is no shame in feeling suicidal and i'm sorry that you feel this way. being vulnerable and getting hurt for it is the worst feeling in the world but it feels so much worse to never open up. an absence of pain doesn't mean you're not suffering if that makes sense. please talk to someone. I really hope you get help and I hope you know that you are heard and not alone.
Thank you! I definitely don't want to experience romance, but it sounds nice in theory, lol. And don't worry, my mental state much better now. I don't really have any support systems I can reach out to, and therapy didn't help, but I don't really have much time to think about it with all my pre-med stuff, so it's not really a problem anymore! (◍•ᴗ•◍)
I hope you're doing okay. Actually I relate to you, so I wanna rant too. Out of the many people I know or am close with there's not a single one with whom I can share my feelings. I've tried to be considerate of everyone but I feel like I've been taken for granted. Recently I discovered that not caring gave me the most peace. Minding my own business, living my life quietly focusing on my uni studies is what giving me peace rn. There's not a single person in my life who is worth sharing my feelings or being close with. I used to hate thek for that but now I don't anymore. I just learned to not care, and my life has become so easy. With no expectations from others, no one can hurt you. That's the best lesson I've learned! Also distanced myself from the mindset of finding someone until I graduate. I recently ended my relationship with someone. They were so toxic to me, I didn't realize the level of toxicity until I left. That's why life is looking beautiful rn. I'd rather be alone than experience that again.
I'm glad you were able to leave your toxic relationship! I hope that I can take on that mindset someday, I think I'm slowly getting there. I also hope that you're able to find some friends that can lessen your burden and not make you feel so isolated :( if you ever need anyone to rant to, feel free to come back here! :) I know how painful it is to have people around you that don't understand how you feel and who you aren't close enough to share the details with. I hope you can get through university and find someone who truly cares for you (◍•ᴗ•◍)
I know it's a great story when I get depressed about the fact that I'll never experience romance, lol. I found this story bc I'm so burnt out from pre med in college, this made me feel so much better. Art style reminds me of bleach.
Rant bc I'm emotionally and physically exhausted and I know no one will read this: jealous that little sparrow has someone that will get angry on his behalf when he feels suicidal. The one time I confoded in someone about it (my mother) I got shamed so bad. Sighhh, it's been years and the feeling hasn't gone away, but at least I can find solace in cute stories like these. The only time I feel truly relieved is when I think about committing, so I understand him.