and the one thing overcomplicating everything is leilia being unable to choose how to tell good/effective lies & half truth and being self hating & unconfident still trapped in her victimhood bc she doesn't want to burden others with her very obvious traumas, pains and problems
she'll try to shoulder the world’s problem and believe it's her fault personally that bad things happen, but still won't share her own problems when she's the one who need help the most

I rlly loved the start, but now it’s js too complicated. Also imo I lowk don’t want a ml, like I js don’t want her choosing one