no i am DEVASTATED by kura no ryuukeichi. stsg nation does not know happiness T_T. i'll recommend you "do not go gentle into that good night" by "shi nien er san" it's not my reading manga(PLEASE read it,like rn, and tell me about it oh god i want someone else to read it the angst was angsting fr, it got no smut pure pain as god intended). plus, i recommend all the doujinshis from that author. "blue" is a good one too.
iknow abt stsg doujins. what i mean is the heartwrenching dynamic. most doujins is about smut. i want the grief, the pain, the absolute helplessness and hopelessness in the dynamic, the knowing it's doomed yet i still can't love any other except you. the "in all lifetimes only you" kind of dynamic AGH man do i love soulmatism. im pits deep into this doomed yaoi shit man istg it's not funny haha anymore it's real mental issue atp T_T
i mean, it is yaoi though lol. y'all can't convince me otherwise. are you saying those were "purely platonic heterosexual strictly just friends" yeah no. that's some BS. alexander went insane, crying and mourning about hephaestion's death. achilles legit fought the trojan war out of RAGE for patroclus' death. rumi out there writer 3000+ sonnets on love and loss when shamz left, there's no heterosexual explanation for this my dear.
i understand where you're coming from, but yaoi is a term which is mostly used loosely now, js like how the term "gay" is used as an umbrella term for people who like same gender. heated rivalry is "hockey yaoi", etc. i never used yaoi in bad faith, so you want me to write "ancient men who partook in homoerotic relationships with their close friend" instead? when i can js say yaoi and people will understand the meaning?
yaoi is a reductive term... it's not abt intention, it's about how u come off. any gay media being considered "yaoi" is just harmful to actual queer media and its portrayal in the mainstream. I don't mean to police u, nor do i mean to make u feel bad, but it's important to actually understand what ur consuming and the huge differences between the kinds of medias ur consuming, rather than grouping it solely based on if there's gay characters involved or not. I can expand if u dont understand what i mean, but i just wanted to say this cuz it is genuinely not good to refer to anything with homosexual relationships as yaoi...
i agree, i m sorry if I came off that way. i don't want to reduce those stories to js gay romance, it's js the way meme language caught up to me ig? Sorry once again if I offended u or anyone, i didn't mean to condense a piece of media to yaoi, but it was js a way for me to call it "homoerotic / queer mlm themed "

so as y'all may or may not know, i fucking LOVE satosugu. y'all TOTALLY need to know them fr. having said that, they ruined my life, their dynamic is so beautiful T_T. (i wish i could write all the details gege akutami put as easter eggs to show their hinted feelings/romance, please ask me about them if you want to know, i will gladly reply. and if you know anything you think i might not know about them, you can tell me as well). do y'all have any heart wrenching soul crushing recommendations for dynamics like that T_T. can be non-BLs as well.
some examples of crushing devotion star crossed dynamic i know:
• lu guang x cheng xiaoshi (link click)
• phainon x mydei (honkai star rail)–i don't play the game, but one of the kind person on mgg happened to tell me about this ship and honestly, im gonna kms T_T they're so star crossed, wdym he said “become the dawn....deliverer(phainon's nickname mydei calls him)” as he was dying by the hands of phainon himself, im ending me T_T
• hikaru x yoshiki (the summer hikaru died)
• joonghyuk x dokja (orv) – never read the novel or manhwa but know a bit about them, “it was a great story, isn't that right?”
• ivan x till (alnst)
• ash x eiji (banana fish)
• dazai x chuuya (bsd)
• the whole narusasu, obikaka, hashimada (naruto)–again, never watched, js know the ships bc i love them gay men
• satoru x suguru (ofcourse!)
• itadori x fushiguro (honorable mention)
some ancient yaoi shit:
• gilgamesh x enkidu (insane to think that the first ever epic known to us is literally YAOI like them men been gay since day #1 T_T)
• achilles x patroclus
• hephaestion x alexander
• hyacinthus x apollo
• rumi x shamz (?)
please tell me what are y'all fav yaoi ships? some ships which have this doomed thing going on, where they can't be together bc of narrative, or js a heartwrenching connection they share.
xoxo peace out and stan #satosugu
(I'm probably gonna get known on this site as THAT ONE SATOSUGU SHIPPER lmao)