guys im genuinely not kidding, being a bi girl is so lonely. it feels like i cannot love anyone correctly. it feels like when I like a guy i am betraying myself bc i also like girls, and when i like a girl i start questioning if im js faking about liking boys. ideally i would be 50/50 preference bi, but men are so misogynist i feel like i cant even love them without teaching them how to be decent beings. it's difficult living in patriarchal society. on top of that, im so fucking fat, like why tf am i not thin? T_T. i js want to be thin. for as long as i remember i have wanted to be thinner, i have prayed to god over and over again and again since i was but a 8 year old kid, to just make me thin. make me sick so i lose weight. it's such a sad thinking to have. i know that, but I want to be thin so badly the way people treat you when you're societally attractive is so different than when you're fat and unattractive. god forbid you're fat and a girl and have opinions, they will run you over with a tank. india is such a depressing country to live in for a non-thin woman like me who's radical feminist, and also queer. i am sick and tired of people not understanding, of people not understanding the situation. the government is FUCKED UP. i hate the government, it's sold out to the rich evil people. everything can be bought with money, india has the biggest corruption problem, big rape culture problem, sexism problem, casteism problem. and with the new bill passed against trans rights, the trans sisters and brothers are not safe. they're coming for us, istg. this is dystopia.
guys im genuinely not kidding, being a bi girl is so lonely. it feels like i cannot love anyone correctly. it feels like when I like a guy i am betraying myself bc i also like girls, and when i like a girl i start questioning if im js faking about liking boys. ideally i would be 50/50 preference bi, but men are so misogynist i feel like i cant even love them without teaching them how to be decent beings. it's difficult living in patriarchal society.
on top of that, im so fucking fat, like why tf am i not thin? T_T. i js want to be thin. for as long as i remember i have wanted to be thinner, i have prayed to god over and over again and again since i was but a 8 year old kid, to just make me thin. make me sick so i lose weight. it's such a sad thinking to have. i know that, but I want to be thin so badly
the way people treat you when you're societally attractive is so different than when you're fat and unattractive. god forbid you're fat and a girl and have opinions, they will run you over with a tank.
india is such a depressing country to live in for a non-thin woman like me who's radical feminist, and also queer. i am sick and tired of people not understanding, of people not understanding the situation. the government is FUCKED UP. i hate the government, it's sold out to the rich evil people. everything can be bought with money, india has the biggest corruption problem, big rape culture problem, sexism problem, casteism problem. and with the new bill passed against trans rights, the trans sisters and brothers are not safe. they're coming for us, istg. this is dystopia.