51! The rape here simply pass through to me while the next couple of chapters focused on the revenge so I was able to reread - half assed per se but still I manage to jog my memory of this story. I wasn’t very keen with about the abuse and rape he had gone through but in how he tried to get away with shackle that binds him and start a new life. I like that he’s slowly reclaiming his strength to protect his love. Chapter 1-50 to me is what I called a nightmare that I don’t want to be replayed in my eyes. I remember but I don’t want to be relived of it. It depends on youuu. It is just I’m too weak of constant torture and pain. I had been cussing out the creator of this way back when a new chapter gets uploaded so I simply want to have the same stance way back. The rape is still explicit and horrible way to my liking yet I can’t truly admonish the creator because I know some people had experienced the exact situation.

I usually reread when there are official translations but i dont think i can for this one..