It’s just so messed up that Phos’ entire life was subtly manipulated to generate enough directed trauma to recreate human emotions. Sensei could have told them more if he had wanted to because he was able to reveal it after the gems split up It would have assuaged their suspicion, but he deliberately withheld it so Phos would betray him, and reach humanity knowing full well the suffering Phos would have to endure.
Phos goes down a dark path, but they are constantly losing important memories, acquiring new parts (which is known to influence bengal state and personality), getting royally traumatized, and manipulated by far older and more intelligent entities (Sensei, Aechma, and even Lapis to a degree)
I loved the story and how tragic phos was as a character. The development in his story is so doomed, it evokes many feelings i cannot comprehend.
I will admit I did hate him when he was trying to kill off the sensei when he had this revenge arc. I literally remember saying "he feels so human" then it gets revealed that Enma intentionally did all of this.
All Phos ever wanted was to be loved and useful, I truly believe that's the core desire in every human. Thats what makes Phos so relatable.
As well as, I love how they wanted to eradicate all humans but they showed human characteristics, even when there were no difference for them to use prejudice, they came up with the caste system (lol).
Im unsure how to feel.
But i do believe "Let down" by Radiohead, embodies Phos as a character.