DAMN YOU ATE THAT UP
i dont think juheok is all dat. i mean he is still grappling w his inferiority complex about being an omega he just has the scenting thing at the forefront of his mind......
It’s not an inferiority complex tho it’s not a personal insecurity it’s a systemic issue the world reinforces his fears case in point what suah did to him and how he sees him as his omega.
If suah treats him like a person first everything else second he would have been in his pants a long time ago, juheok DOES fight his anxiety and step into vulnerability he took a leap of faith in kissing suah and sleeping with him but he was punished for it, suah never fights his anxiety he is never vulnerable everything he does is to sooth his anxiety him taking a leap of faith= being okay with the possibility of juheok not choosing him and acting accordingly backing the fuck off not escalating every interaction out of anxiety he is not even trying to be vulnerable so far while juheok is.
in order to have genuine intimacy with juheok suah has to step out of his brain and focus on reading juheok and stopping his internal spiraling and redefining physical sensations in real time basically do what juheok already does to him, in this chapter he read the situation saw suah spiraling and corrected it, juheok was disassociating even during prepping like suah is the worst case scenario truly for juheoks fears he kept talking about his wet bussy and how he is reacting to pheromones but suah is so self centered he doesn’t really step outside of his anxiety and fear of separation so thats why he can go as far as raping juheok and still think it’s not a big deal in his brain he is securing the relationship, like the scale of morality is not relational towards other people it’s self referential he says that he was holding back lol, to juheok and everyone else it’s obvious that he crossed all lines but in his brain not using EVERYTHING at his disposal to achieve the goal of securing the relationship IS holding back lol so not fully subduing him with pheromones not biting him not impregnating him, non of those is about juheoks it’s self referential morality
It’s all about how suah feels it defines his reality he acts on it doesnt readjust based on whats actually happening, juheok himself said that last chapter that suah wasnt thinking about him at all, and thats the core of his issue.
The way he protected suah here is hot asf the lil waist grab and how attuned he was like yesssir ⁄(⁄ ⁄·⁄ω⁄·⁄ ⁄)⁄ he is consistent since he was young hes a protector that was straight up instincts . Literally just highlights how shitty suah is, overstepping physical boundaries again straight after juheok protected him and still on the jealousy shit, the bringing up the crying and statements made during, like he still is not aware of how shitty and unjustified he was, thats good tho it would be lazy writing to pretend he could just do that and realize and apologize immediately after because in reality this is a fundamentally warped thinking from suah and needs to be addressed as such bro is not normal. It’s giving bpd he does not have a stable sense of self he relies on external validation which unfortunately happens to be my man juheok who has the opposite problem he is so sure of who he is and doesnt like the system or any label that diminishes that.