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kuu May 4, 2026 4:17 am

i just read actual spoilers from the novel. it’s not even yaoi or porn it’s actual torture and horror. if you have ptsd or has any triggers or even just have a faint heart please don’t read this/continue reading this. i’m not shaming anyone for reading this (if you don’t know what happens afterwards) but i’m going to judge you if you read the entire novel and still continue to support/enjoy this because that shit was genuinely disturbing.

spoilers: 3x gang rape scenarios, 2x rape scenarios not by the ml, SA/rape involving a dog, every single chapter contains brutal abuse and rape, ml does not give a fuck about the mc and mc doesn’t even like the ml he’s just too traumatized to do anything. it’s not a happy ending (obv) but it’s not even a bittersweet ending like the author’s other works. nothing positive ever happens it’s just torture after torture.

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    novacane May 3, 2026 10:46 am

    thank you, i was debating whether or not to give it a try and this comment just gave me every reason to never read this

    kuu May 3, 2026 12:14 pm
    thank you, i was debating whether or not to give it a try and this comment just gave me every reason to never read this novacane

    save yourself girl. it’s been almost an entire day after i found out what’s going to happen and i am still so sad and frustrated even if it’s just fiction

    kuu May 3, 2026 12:15 pm
    save yourself girl. it’s been almost an entire day after i found out what’s going to happen and i am still so sad and frustrated even if it’s just fiction kuu

    why is my woman standing emoji not showing up

    MM May 3, 2026 12:31 pm
    why is my woman standing emoji not showing up kuu

    I also have problems with the emojis, thought it was just me.

    kawaiito May 3, 2026 3:45 pm

    its not gonna be like the novel btw

    kuu May 3, 2026 4:09 pm
    its not gonna be like the novel btw kawaiito

    hasn’t it been following the novel plot right now, and even if it doesn’t follow everything exactly won’t it be still continuing with the novel’s plot since it’s already written? (not being rude btw!!)

    neep May 3, 2026 11:15 pm
    hasn’t it been following the novel plot right now, and even if it doesn’t follow everything exactly won’t it be still continuing with the novel’s plot since it’s already written? (not being rude btw!!... kuu

    apparently the dog scene wont be shown and i think the rest will be the same as the novel (just what i saw on tiktok)

    kuu May 4, 2026 1:41 am
    apparently the dog scene wont be shown and i think the rest will be the same as the novel (just what i saw on tiktok) neep

    that’s still bad though

    littytittymo May 4, 2026 8:10 am

    Can you please spoil the ending for me I do want to keep reading this crap cause it's low-key scaring me and it's high key so uncomfortable to read/see, however I am curious to how this crazy horrifying story ends so please due tell!

    kuu May 4, 2026 3:34 pm
    Can you please spoil the ending for me I do want to keep reading this crap cause it's low-key scaring me and it's high key so uncomfortable to read/see, however I am curious to how this crazy horrifying story e... littytittymo

    So basically after this point, there are continuous sexual punishments whenever Jiwook acts a bit out of line, which really makes Jiwook submissive and fucked up his brain. At some point, he has the courage to ask Juyeon is he can go out to the living room, to which he agrees and later on even gives Jiwook his phone but is heavily surveilling him. His friend Soohyuk messages him and he is allowed to text. At some point, he calls him and is allowed to answer. His friend is "worried" about him and, after some chit chat, tells him to come to drink at the university club thing they're doing. Juyeon agrees that he can go if he wants. At this point, things are a bit "better" (and I say this loosely) between them. They go to that event and things go off the rails, he sees Sangjin (I still honestly dont know who that is, I'm thinking many it's that junior that r*ped him) who gives him weird looks, and later on, he finds out that his pictures were circulated and that Soohyuk, who told him all this btw, had a part to play in this. He feels betrayed, but more so by Juyeon, who had told him before that he didn't share the photos with Soohyuk. Woojin, a gang member it seems and someone who had beef with Jiwook in their past, comes in and there is tension and he's speaking as though he knows Juyeon. They have a fist fight and anyways he is dragged outside by Juyeon, who tells Jiwook to forget everything he just heard cuz it won't change anything). Jiwook then says that he feels betrayed by Juyeon because he lied to him about not sending the photos to his friend and that he cant trust him anymore. Jiwook then says that if Juyeon lied about this, then he doesn't know what else Juyeon could have lied about and that he could have lied about doing something wrong to Juyeon in the past. This triggers Juyeon, who drags him to the alley, pushing him and hurting his knee, fac-f*cks him and slaps him so hard many times that he passes out. He is taken back to that room and treated even worse than before (and you know this sh*t is depraved if it's even worse than we have already seen or will see soon). Anywho, this goes on until one day, Juyeon leaves behind his phone while in Jiwook's room and there is a call from Soohyeok, which Jiwook answers. He tells he can save him and to leave the house once Juyeon leaves today (to visit his mother in the hospital). He thinks he cant because he is leashed to the wall but then looks and sees it was only a knot to the wall, not pad-locked. He quickly agrees, hangs up the phone and puts it back. He, who has been pwwing on dog pads this entire time, tells Juyeon that the pads are all wet and he needs to use the toilet. Because Juyeon needs to leave asap and can get the pads, etc., he tells him to use the bathroom this time and leaves (without locking him inside the room). Jiwook waits for a while and runs out the back entrance of the building, where he sees a weird car, and in it are Soohyeok and Sangjin (it's Sangjin's car). He reluctantly goes in the car and they drive to Soohyeok's house and there Sangjin attempts to r*pe Juwook, which Soohyeok had told Sangjin was the price for him to help get Jiwook out of there. There is a fight and Sangjin is about to r*pe Jiwook when suddenly, Juyeon and Woojin come inside and stop the attempted r*pe. This is all after Juyeon and Woojin had visited Juyeon's mother in the hospital and his mother mentioning Jiwook's name and telling Juyeon not to hang out with him anymore (she has mental issues and is confusing the past with the present), and then discussing what to do with Jiwook. So now Juyeon beats Soohyeok to a pulp and then forces Jiwook to be ass-f*cked by the semi-unconscious Soohyeok. Jiwook after doing this passes out and both him and Soohyeok are dragged to another location, and Sangjin is "taken care of" by Woojin (maybe he killed him, idk). In that other location, other 6-7 gang members or people from Jiwook's past that were delinquents which were beaten by Jiwook, gather after being called upon by Woojin and when Jiwook regains his consciousness, loses it after hearing Juyeon's story:

    Juyeon was a student and after an encounter with Jiwook at a PC Cafe, meets him again at school. They become friends (which makes Juyeon lose his original friends because he is now hanging out with delinquents). One say, Jiwook invites Juyeon to a hangout drinking session, and he agrees. He sneaks out at night, goes there and gets drunk. He drunkenly tells Jiwook that he likes him and Jiwook is disgusted. He runs away and avoids him at school, to which he then faces and goes to a secluded place in the school (like a sports storage unit?? I forgot what it is called) and Jiwook attempts to r*pe Juyeon because he is gay and "wants it". A teacher comes just in time and so nothing happens. Jiwook tells Juyeon to come somewhere after school or else he will kill him, and Juyeon goes there. He is gang-r*ped by Jiwook and his delinquent friends and is recorded (and here, Jiwook also says that he does this to every girl who confesses that they like him, so basically he has gang-r*ped a lot of girls and took their photos, etc). They threaten Juyeon and tell him that if he doesnt do as they say, they will spread his photos and videos everywhere and directly to his mum. This keeps going on and on, until one day Jiwook takes Juyeon to the library and r*pes him in one of the toilet stalls then tapes him to the toilets, with his limbs also bound with tape and leaves him there. A random guy comes in and r*pes Juyeon. After that, Jiwook "disappeared". Juyeon's pictures and videos are spread, and his mither finds him in the hospital (im guessing this is why she lost her mind, after finding out what happened to her son). We later are told that Jiwook was in a fight and got hit on the head and had gotten amnesia, forgetting everything he had done that past year, which is when things had happened with Juyeon, hence why he couldn't remember him. Juyeon visits him at the hospital and this is when he decides to get revenge after Jiwook telling him that he either doesn't remember Juyeon because he is unimportant or because he wants to forget him, and when Juyeon gives the "hypothetical" scenario of being beat up and asking Jiwook what he would do if this happened to him, he said he would get payback regardless of everything. So Juyeon made him resolve and was obsessed with Jiwook and getting his revenge, which Woojin supprted him by training him etc. Woojin first saw Juyeon after having seen the pictures spread and seeing Juyeon outside the same hospital Jiwook and his mother were hospitalised in and was the one who told Juyeon about Jiwook's amnesia and how he doesn't remember him anymore and to get revenge.

    Back to the present, Jiwook denies this, saving its all made up and is losing his mind with anger, and keeps saying to Juyeon that he is doing this to Jiwook because he likes him, and provoking him. Juyeon tells the guys to r*pe him and they all do, including Woojin, and they do horrific things to him, including urethra torture, being f*cked by a bat, etc. and beating him up as well, and piss inside him and on him. Juyeon takes him to the hospital because the damage was severe and Jiwook is hospitalised. During his sleep, he remembers what he did to Juyeon and when he wakes up, apologises to Juyeon and considers what happened to him as deserved. He is obviously mentally f*cked at this point and begs Juyeon not to abandon him and Juyeon says he will stay with him and takes him home. That's the end of the main story.

    this is not written by me !! it’s from around page 10-11

    littytittymo May 5, 2026 5:49 am

    Thank you, you're a freaking saint that is so insane and absured but at least now it all clicks for me still a crazy and evil story the writing is insane like bro.. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR HELPING MY CURIOSITY SO I DIDNT HAVE TO SEE NON OF THAT I LOVE YOU STRANGER (〜 ̄△ ̄)〜 ┗( T﹏T )┛(づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ