This was one of the first anime I watched as a kid, back when you could watch them separated in parts on a YouTube playlist, I was too young to understand the complexity of the story it was until years of re watching in in different stages of my life that I started to understand it much better.
This story always left me with a strange feeling in my chest: frustration, pain, sadness, mixed feelings that I couldn't identify as just one thing, and revisiting the anime at different stages of my life made me see Yano in different ways, I would love him, hate him, feel empathy, sadness, betrayalI, but I couldn't truly understand him, I didn't understand why he was so attached to the memory of his late girlfriend, why couldn't he just move in with his life and be happy with Nanami.
I had never had the opportunity to read the manga before; it was difficult to find it translated into Spanish, and it wasn't until years later, when I learned English, that I decided to try looking for it on other websites, It was truly a different experience to learn what happened after the end of the anime and to see everything that both characters had to go through, but this time, I connected with Yano differently, understanding grief and guilt when someone close loses their life or takes their own life, my late girlfriend took her own life and I finally understand why Yano couldn't let go of the memory of Nana, why he thought he didn't deserve to be happy with Nanami after his mother died, because it was something I am currently experiencing, but is a process with grief.
People are complex, our life experiences shape us, although sometimes we make decisions that, without realizing it, are not the best option and just hurt more people in the process, it isn't until the past of time that we realize our mistakes, we change and grow carrying the scars of those experiences. The manga left me with a strange feeling in my chest that ended up becoming a lump in my throat, bursting into tears, I wish I could share this anime with my girlfriend, It always remained something we would do, but now it's just a what if of my mind.
You're not alone, we make mistakes, we hurt people, but what's important is that you recognize those mistakes and change, it takes time.
I'm happy they are together in the end and that Yano was able to finally face Nana.
This was one of the first anime I watched as a kid, back when you could watch them separated in parts on a YouTube playlist, I was too young to understand the complexity of the story it was until years of re watching in in different stages of my life that I started to understand it much better.
This story always left me with a strange feeling in my chest: frustration, pain, sadness, mixed feelings that I couldn't identify as just one thing, and revisiting the anime at different stages of my life made me see Yano in different ways, I would love him, hate him, feel empathy, sadness, betrayalI, but I couldn't truly understand him, I didn't understand why he was so attached to the memory of his late girlfriend, why couldn't he just move in with his life and be happy with Nanami.
I had never had the opportunity to read the manga before; it was difficult to find it translated into Spanish, and it wasn't until years later, when I learned English, that I decided to try looking for it on other websites, It was truly a different experience to learn what happened after the end of the anime and to see everything that both characters had to go through, but this time, I connected with Yano differently, understanding grief and guilt when someone close loses their life or takes their own life, my late girlfriend took her own life and I finally understand why Yano couldn't let go of the memory of Nana, why he thought he didn't deserve to be happy with Nanami after his mother died, because it was something I am currently experiencing, but is a process with grief.
People are complex, our life experiences shape us, although sometimes we make decisions that, without realizing it, are not the best option and just hurt more people in the process, it isn't until the past of time that we realize our mistakes, we change and grow carrying the scars of those experiences. The manga left me with a strange feeling in my chest that ended up becoming a lump in my throat, bursting into tears, I wish I could share this anime with my girlfriend, It always remained something we would do, but now it's just a what if of my mind.
You're not alone, we make mistakes, we hurt people, but what's important is that you recognize those mistakes and change, it takes time.
I'm happy they are together in the end and that Yano was able to finally face Nana.