Girl are you me? SAME! I read smutty stuff like this and then go on real life like; “eww don’t touch me” xD
I’ll just die as a virgen too cuz I’m straight and I’m supposed to be attracted to men but I find most real life men gross; and don’t ever see myself sucking d*ck (that looks humiliating and disgusting) so..
I’ll just keep crushing on fictional men from manga, novels, movies and kdrama.

Too bad I'm disgusted when touching someone/being touched by someone irl both men/women (that won't be happening to me, probably I'll die as a virgin). But I'm jealous af of Yuri (still I won't do it irl never eww). Like only hot because it wasn't real and not me *Idk what my condition is lmao