Chap 38

Lowkirkuenly I feel hella bad for Yeonwu. That poor guy imagine being an orphan finally getting adopted just to end up an orphan again. I FUCKING HATE ROSA‘S MOM OML FUCK THAT OLD HAG. AAAA IM SP PISSED.


I don’t like Rosa and it might be because she kinda reminds me of me for some reason. We both are only children. Both girls. Okay I don’t wanna sound cringe by saying „O-omg I AM R-ROSA!“ no I just understand her situation. I grew up spoiled by my parents and not in a OMG IM SO RICH. No I just had everything I ever wanted given to me. And not having the one thing I want idk how to describe the feeling but it’s not pretty. The feeling that Rosa had to destroy the very thing u want so the owner of the very thing u want doesn’t want it anymore. I get it. I have very filthy things I have done. Stealing it. Destroying it. Giving it back but it’s not the same anymore so they throw it away and u pick it up and u suddenly don’t feel happy because its not in the condition u once had it but there is this deep satisfaction with the fact that the person who had it first can’t have it either. Idk but maybe that’s what it’s called being selfish. I might be selfish. Even with guys which I am sorta not proud of. But yeah it did not end up pretty. I hate Rosa but I like Rosa. She might be a good person deep inside because I know she is. She is capable of taking care of him and feeling regret about her actions.

I do love Yeonwu a lot as a character he is this complex guy who I can’t help but cheer for. Even cheering him on if he decides to leave Rosa. He is flawed but not in a way that makes me feel disgusted with him. He is the way he is because of his surroundings. His past is what shaped him. He doesn’t deserve to be treated this roughly he looks like a flower so he deserves to be treated gently like one. I hope the ending of this shitty ass story is at least good. If not for Rosa at least I hope he ends up happy. If with Rosa I hope the author decides to change their dynamic and make it less toxic and have them both end up in a beautiful love story. The desire to make a shock value manhwa seems to be all authors these days are aiming for. I dont like it. The artstyle of this manhwa is way too beautiful. It hurts to see it go the path it’s going.Seeing the state Yeonwu is in the tiredness in his eyes. It’s just so heartbreaking.


Also the author is planning to go into hiatus once season 1 is over which fucking sucks but I hope she gets a good break and comes back with a banger of a second season. All and all it was a good chapter it had me a bit in tears but ye..