no i want a very specific torture ritual of ash lynx spiralling and going on a k*lling spree. i js know that guy would go insane. actually i watched the clip of eiji getting shot and ash losing his mind and then shooting the one who shot the bullet on eiji, and he js kept shooting him w his eyes seeing red. i need that kind of insanity. greif making a heartless shell out of a man. if you have any recs like these please tell.
what i dont want: a person sad bc death of their lover, and then another person slowly takes a liking and it ends up a romance b/w them (or person seeing a doppelganger of their dead lover and same route)→NO.
it can be sad ending, the death of the lover need not be in the beginning, it's better if the story has made a premise of them falling in love and then the death of the lover(BL, straight, GL any is ok).
it's better if MC (who isn't dead) came from a dysfunctional family/didn't have anyone until the lover arrived in their life. so like "only one person and now they're also dead" type, and then the MC goes berserk or insane or whatever (i dont need a happy romantic end, i would prefer if ending is the MC also ending up dead afterwards).
tropes i dont like(and would personally won't want): twink bottoms(and exaggerated size differences), age gaps(extreme ones, like not more than 7 years and the younger party should be above 26 of there is age gap) , virgin X experienced.
i know my tastes are kind of niche, sorry. if you happen to know some things like that so lemme know.

i want a fanfic where eiji d*es instead of ash lynx. it should be SAD and i need to see ash lynx's reaction and how HE copes?
maybe ash is saved from the library but realises maybe plane crashed and eiji d*ed or eiji d*ed after getting hit by a gun? anything, but eiji character d*ath. i love eiji so much i cry for him all the time don't think i dont like him, but i wanna see the pain and grief of ash lynx