Hmm. Long drabble :)

I know someone probably won’t read this long ass comment but I feel like I have to.

Woojin… He’s—I actually relate to him. I understand what he’s been through, though not as extreme. That’s what years of trauma, manipulation, and abuse would do to you. Now, I’m not saying this to absolve him of his wrong doings nor do I tolerate his actions. But what I’m getting at is, I understand. His character is complex, it’s imperfect, it’s flawed. It’s real.

I know exactly the dread of being alone, and settling for something that you know would hurt you and step on your pride, I was once desperate enough to beg for love like that. So much so that just like Woojin, I would be okay for my partner to be with someone else just so they would keep me by my side. And back then I thought that was okay, I thought it was normal. And I know that’s what Woojin felt.

I liked how they didn’t force everything all at once. They were all flawed, they all made mistakes, they were all wounded. But wounds, they heal, time heals. One step at a time, you’d eventually be okay. But like any other wounds, sometimes it’ll leave a scar, a permanent reminder of what you once were. And sometimes it’ll hurt once more, and you’d cry and be sad. But that’s okay, because that’s what makes you human.

If you’re reading this, and you’re thinking of dropping this, or maybe you already did. May I please ask you to rethink that decision and power through until the end? Maybe you’ll grow to like it. But if not, then that’s okay too. This type of genre isn’t for everyone after all.

Anyway, all I’m saying is, I love Woojin’s character. I wish I could just give him the biggest hug, and tell him he’s enough, that he matters, and that he’s not worthless. Because I feel like if I did, I’d also come to terms with my past and give myself a pat on the back for surviving all that and still have the strength to be here. And I wish that for you as well, if you’re going through something, just rant away, you can do it here, on reddit, tumblr, on your notes app, if you have a friend you can talk to that’s even better. But let it out. Let it all out. It helps. You are enough.

Thank you for reading this. You helped me a lot. Just the thought of someone listening to me is enough.