where's the great awakening moment when he finds out it wasnt seme who raped him but that ...

where's the great awakening moment when he finds out it wasnt seme who raped him but that fuchface? i thought there'll be at least an apology for how shit he treated him and did he even gain his memories back from after the accident during the amnesia period ? the ending is such a party pooper for me this yaoi is on an indefinite hiatus after chapter 68 whatever the fuck author cooked up after that has none to do with such a great work