Honestly I understood it as like a mix of him realizing he forced himself on Jonak in the beginning plus the fact that Jonak was like 20 when they met, and Adain was already ancient at the time, so Jonak was like really young and I think that the scene he saw him as a child was he realizing the age difference between them and that like he was grown for a human but for a imortal he was basically a baby who didnt know better and was coarse into doing what Adain wanted to get what he wanted… but idk

The premise of the story is great, and the art is fab, and the dynamics between Jonak and Adain is so precious. Really like how they converse with each other.
But there’s just one thing that’s bothering me: what triggered Adain to sleep separately from Jonak, and for a very long time at that. What’s with his reaction when Jonak was discussing the thing he saw about the priest? And then later on, we saw him having a dream that he laid with the young Jonak. This part really doesn’t make sense to me.
Overall though, it was a great read.