My interpretation here once again relies more on what has been implied, and has been left unsaid. The subtext here is pretty strong imo.
"I wanted to keep doing that, if I could..." Left unsaid: "with you"
"My feelings were absolutely never a lie". But they weren't the full truth either. His actual, unflinching, immovable truth is his love for TJ. That truth trumps all other truths.
So I interpret that he grew to truly care about Jo, and has matured as a character. TJ's obsession with YW fueled YW's self worth as an abandoned child. But that led them both down a dark path, which both YW and TJ blame themselves for. It's important to note that both TJ and Ian blames themselves for what has happened, and how the other has turned out. They turn the bullets, not outwards. They don't blame the other. Juxtapose this with Jo's breakdown after Ian kills the guy tailing him at end of S2. Jo blames Ian in his mental breakdown.
Now, present YW knows that he can't take joy in Jo's obsession with him because that will mean yet another source of guilt and misery for YW, and yet another journey down a potential dark, albeit different, path. But care and love can come in different ways. And the way he cared for or loved Jo was never the way he cares for and loves TJ.
I will caveat this by saying that an analysis hinging on linguistics alone relies on the translation. So if we are to encounter different translations, that may very well change the subtext altogether because it changes the text. But I'm going by the text provided in the official translations uploaded here.
turn the bullets inwards, not outwards...
apologies for the typos and missing bits
Thankyou for explaining again n again
most welcome! I've quite enjoyed you live streaming your reading of the manhwa... =D
In ch 98 when jo asked ian that the love he did was lie and ian said no it was true and he wanted to keep doing if he could ...? Then he loved two people at same time??? Then why he's going to tj man what is this complication