Same!!! When I first read about Yuki, I had to stop reading the manga for 3-4 years or so... I was grieving!!! At first I hated Mafuyu, but then again he was grieving so much, and he really deserves happyness too. (Not saying he deserves happyness because he grieved.)
it was the opposite for me, i grieved Yuki but i hated him for how he treated Mafuyuu and how suffocating that love was for him.
Lolol it was definitely not suffocating- they were having very normal relationship problems anyone would have especially considering their age- ur making it out to be as if yuki was super toxic or sm shi when it very clearly portrayed he was not
hmmmm maybe I'll re read it again and see if it's a lapse in memory or something similar.
I love everyone so fucking much but I'm just never getting over yuki omg fuck me