sorry guys…this is a lot I’m just going crazy…

I’m obsessed with this little Cold War they have going on bc once it’s over, once the explosion happens, they’re never gonna be the same again. Mainly because (maybe unconsciously?) Kim Heejae also wants Garam to /know/ bc for someone to listen to your sound, really really listen and understand which we know Garam will lol, is to /KNOW/ them. Heejae basically felt a sense of self, of a soul inside the same fire that he lives in himself, when he first heard Garam’s sound. Hence the obsession and tenacity and all the nastiness and hurt and inability to let go of him, everyone else and all the consequences be damned. I really think that their sound is the same or at the very least shades of the same color and when they both reconcile this fact it’s gonna be the end. They’ll never be able to be apart from one another, they’ll be entwined forever bc not it’s not just Heejae molding Garam (which is also inherently, and a lot of the time without meaning to, into something similar or in the shape of the instructor) but now they’re going to become symbiotic (my theory is cannibalistically symbiotic bc they’re true freak4freak in my headcanon lol). Heejae feeds of Garam’s inner purity and clear beauty, Garam sharpens off of Heejae’s worldliness (they way his approach has deepened from viewing the paintings and being exposed to other kinds of music like jazz and then the socialization aspect w the drinks and dining) and single minded tenacity (memorizing pieces in few weeks, striving towards technical mastery to augment his thematic and stylistic inherent traits). Garam is going to be shocked into another dimension (in my humble opinion) when he also feels the tenderness present in Heejae’s sound. The door will be blown the fuck open and whatever scar they left on each other will now have a never ending depth, impossible to be sewed shut and turned away from.
Heejae is hurt by Garam turning away, he can bitch about acoustics and experience all he wants, truth is he unconsciously is craving the awe that Garam may have from his sound (aka who he is). They’re both discovering new facets of each other now that they’re living together and it’s impossible for them to get over it lol they’re both boiling with the want to just fall into the abyss together and get it over with.
(yes…sorry I know this is insane lmao but I feel insane bc of how phenomenal this is it triggered my literary analysis mode, obsessed doesn’t even begin to cover it omg I needed to get these thoughts out of my system sorry guys…I could of course also be totally monumentally wrong but well that’s the fun of it too isn’t it?)