i love how messy and real this feels. the characters are flawed, selfish, and unkind, but human, and they love how humans love: irrationally and desperately.
i appreciate how this manga captures the complications of bisexuality and its clashes with conformity. do you go after who you love, when you're not even sure what love is, and the world is screaming that your love is wrong, and there's a 'better' option? do you keep hurting your partner because you can't commit, or do you end it, even when you want it so badly? because kyouichi wants it so badly.
when kissing imagase, kyouichi spots his own blurry eyes in the mirror, lost in lust, and can barely reconcile that version of himself with the imagined one in his mind... the moment reprised at the end, when he sees himself as imagase is penetrating him--the final emasculation, no turning back--and imagase covers kyoichi's eyes... if you make an escape route, a man will escape. cornered mouse, there's nowhere to go here. you've got your final slice of cheese.
this can't end well, but oh how you want so badly for both of them to be happy! but can a selfish, cowardly man like kyouichi ever truly commit? will he take what he has for granted, searching for escape to a better option once the novelty and initial rush fades? always turning towards who will love him the most, the best, because he can't believe in his own worth? can't believe he can love right? and will imagase ever be satisfied and secure? will he ever let the paranoia rest? they're happy now, can they be happy forever? maybe if they can grow and change, but can they? ough it hurts so good.
i love how messy and real this feels. the characters are flawed, selfish, and unkind, but human, and they love how humans love: irrationally and desperately.
i appreciate how this manga captures the complications of bisexuality and its clashes with conformity. do you go after who you love, when you're not even sure what love is, and the world is screaming that your love is wrong, and there's a 'better' option? do you keep hurting your partner because you can't commit, or do you end it, even when you want it so badly? because kyouichi wants it so badly.
when kissing imagase, kyouichi spots his own blurry eyes in the mirror, lost in lust, and can barely reconcile that version of himself with the imagined one in his mind... the moment reprised at the end, when he sees himself as imagase is penetrating him--the final emasculation, no turning back--and imagase covers kyoichi's eyes... if you make an escape route, a man will escape. cornered mouse, there's nowhere to go here. you've got your final slice of cheese.
this can't end well, but oh how you want so badly for both of them to be happy! but can a selfish, cowardly man like kyouichi ever truly commit? will he take what he has for granted, searching for escape to a better option once the novelty and initial rush fades? always turning towards who will love him the most, the best, because he can't believe in his own worth? can't believe he can love right? and will imagase ever be satisfied and secure? will he ever let the paranoia rest? they're happy now, can they be happy forever? maybe if they can grow and change, but can they? ough it hurts so good.