like i understand that it's a distressing situation and i do also want to stand up for what i believe in, but like. you will accomplish absolutely nothing by dying a fool's death
just because you postpone a plan and wait for a better opportunity to do something doesn't mean you suck and you're horrible, i'd say i'd have much more faith in a plan that was actually properly thought out and postponed when necessary

honestly just abort the entire mission at this point. you can't try again later if you're already dead. if i was MC i'd cut my losses and settle with my himbo zombie bf until the dust settles lmao