Same babe. After 8 tears i reread it . It felt like i am going through the same pain like sangwoo. Im feeling so much anguish. Idk what to do with all this feelings
Oh my God!! Someone who understands. I thought I was alone. I've discussed this with some people and I came to the conclusion that what really shatters me about Sangwoo is that I feel like I watch him returning to the position of a frightened child. And, most importantly, a frightened child that is scared that he is going to be killed by his mother, a person who he actually loves. I think, towards the ending, in Sangwoo's traumatized mind, Yoonbum is becoming his mother and the horror starts once again, like a neverending circle. It's like she never left him. I feel like Sangwoo had learnt that love and violence can coexist, so when he loves someone he never feels safe. And when he never feels safe and he is frightened that his loved one is gonna either betray or abandon him, he becomes paranoid and violent. Again, that doesn't give him any excuse whatsoever. But I'm in a position to never forgive him and actually shatter me at the same time. Makes me wanna go back to the time he was a kid and protect him from the adults who were supposed to protect him. I'm sorry I wrote too many things. I got really excited!!!
I wrote about this in my diary as I have no other person to talk to.. :)it was my first yaoi.. of course its more than yaoi. I have the same opinion as you do. I felt bad for sangwoo after knowing how he suffered from his childhood. I wanted to protect him as well. But im not justifying his action. It was wrong no matter what. But whenever he was frightened like a child it broke my heart... Sangwoo loved bum in his own twisted way. He was obsessed with him.but the memories of his mother never left his mind. He loved his mother nd also was terrified of his mother. Sangwoo can't leave something he loves. Like his mother also bum. When he was in the hospital he desperately called for him. Even though he knows that bum betrayed him which was not the case. Bum loved him too. But was unable to give him emotional support that sangwoo needed. He couldn't understand sangwoos mental state. Everything about this manhwa was so fascinating. How the characters are drawn. The melancholic expression of sangwoo. And everything is something. Now im sorry. Talked too much . Hehe
Killing stalking is actually the tale about two completely broken people, traumatized in their own way, trying to love and be loved while being doomed. This was never gonna end well, they never meant to be healthy, there was never hope for either of them, and that's sad and tragic on its own.
I enjoy talking about this so much, in a weird way, because nothing about this story is enjoyable. I think I like being understood, because this is a difficult story to see beyond the sickness and the horror, so people don't think about it much further than that, because it makes them uncomfortable. Or so that's what I think about anyway, just my opinion, I may be wrong! Either way, I'm so happy right now!! Thank you!!
I loved that i found someone who share's the same feelings. I normally don't comment. I was just feeling so hollow after finishing it. Was going through the comments. Nd i liked your opinion on this.it was my exact thought about the manhwa nd sangwoo. I loved talking to you
I would love to talk to you again!!! I feel like we share some opinions on some difficult topics and that's pretty rare to find in another person! If you'd like I could tell you my insta so we could talk more comfortably again. If you'd prefer not to you can just ignore that reply. No pressure!!! Either way I loved talking to you too!!
Im currently not using ig. But here's my fb account. Anxy tee:)
This was my introduction to yaoi and manhwa in general back in 2017. I recently tried to read it again. I genuinely couldn't finish it and the reason was Sangwoo. Not because of the brutality or all of the assaults or all of the manipulation that he does. Maybe this is controversial but I couldn't bear all of the anguish, the anxiety and the mental agony that he goes through towards the last part of the series. Be careful, it's not my intention to excuse all the shit that he did, there is no excuse for none of it. What I'm trying to say is that, almost 10 years later, Sangwoo's mental agony and trauma affected me in ways that I didn't expect and I don't really know what to do with that information. I just felt that I struggled along with him and that was too much for me.