Ts chapter in the novel got me shaking in my boots

Yall are veeeery jolly about them being gay here but I'm here to tell you that this scene was written waaaay more terrifying and unforgiving in the novel bc Mr. Hyunjae over here was counting every time his expression faltered during the course of their meeting and negotiation AND THEN DECLINED THE CONTRACT to communicate to Yoojin how high the stakes of the position he wanted was ... poor homeboy was barely holding himself together with the argument that he had to take this route if to not sacrifice himself and give grief to the people who love him, and I'm so proud of him for not breaking over having his shattered self-worth tested TT

also ps. there are SEVERAL actual gay scenes coming up including one where Hyunjae does something akin to a confession/proposal ... the other gay scene you'll have to find out on your own (i dont think its possible for them to censor that one)