Poor mental health. When I was much younger, I got so obsessed over someone I was basically stalking them and my happiness depended on whether or not they looked my way. I was in a really dark place. Funny enough, when I finally got to hang out with that person, I realized I didn't like anything about their personality and I was just obsessing with their online persona and the idea I built of them in my head. A decade of therapy and medication has helped tremendously.

Damn how does one love or get obsessed like that i don't even have passion for anything in my life