This might be good:
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/hwang_young_s_misery/
the main story (dont drag side story in this we all know it's smut to please the horny readers) clearly shows that the whole situation is not romantic or attractive or whatever you call it, it's ugly, painful and only sad. but its only my opinion and interpretation of the thing... and it's not my fault if there's the bl tag
ofc they gonna put smut on the side story, that's what half of the readers want and im not saying that it's a good thing but acting like it's an horrible thing to do is just being hypocrite considering how the bl industry works and what most of the readers want it's not my fault if it works like that

i want to read a bl with psychological horror like Killing stalking, Red mansion, or Die in my arms, but NO FETISHIZATION OR ROMANTIZATION
please give me recommendations like those three, i NEED it