But come on... When he asked about first love he thought about small xinlu... If he developed feelings later in life, then he would have thought about older xinlu.
It was framed that way... Maybe it was different in the novel.
But first love... And thinking about child yuri doesn't make it any better.
later in the next chapter you will see What Yuri had in mind was Xinlu who had grown up not a child anymore. a pedo looks with sexual lust and yuri doesn't think or feel xinlu there at all...it was pure admiration for beauty. He felt his heart broken for the first time because he knew that Xinlu really hated the person who saved him when he was drowning. that's what made yuri think that his first heartbreak was little xinlu
How can you equate a simple fascination with beauty with a sexual obsession? You guys are too bad at understanding Yuri's character. When Xinlu asked Yuri if he had ever experienced her first heartbreak with the adult Xinlu, he thought that the one who made his experience heartbreak for the first time was the boy he had saved even though Yuri had already had many relationships with women and the one who first made Yuri feel heartbroken was Xinlu "who was legal and an adult"